♥ GRACE

2010-07-20T10:40:00.001+08:00

you're the best motivation ever ♥
and i hope this can last, till i grad :)

jiayou!

2010-07-07T00:28:00.002+08:00

imissyou.
i promise, i will graduate with a degree cert.

wonderful day on monday ♥♥
you promise me before, this is not going to happen.
i know you'll keep to your promises.
you're one of the few's that i really trust,
don't ever break that trust in us :)

and, i did three things today♥

2010-06-28T02:54:00.004+08:00

am i that busy? :(
but there's always time for GOD and BEST FRIENDS ♥

mission trip was AWESOMMEE! :)
really GREAT!
it's that kind of feeling, very very very elated!
all of your encouragement,
your words of wisdom,
my soul-mate, that's what i need most when i'm serving.
谢谢你, 朋友！ :D

dinner with jon yest was funnn tooo!
after one year, you're finally back. HAHA!
but you're going back states soon.
we'll have an overall celebration once you're officially back :)

today, headed down barrage after church.
YEAHH! RAINBOW SEVEN♥
with matching clothes, matching D-I-Y kites and matching specs :D

I LOVE YOU, GIRLS♥

ZzZzzZzZ

2010-06-12T00:04:00.003+08:00

random~

1. :) thank GOD for that past six months.
(most of the times, i felt really very disappointed, i know i'm doing so little. i could have done a much more better job to make them yearn more, have a sense of belonging, felt so sorry- that i didn't tried hard enough. i really pray that GOD will bless this group of youths, that they can really walk in your way, serving you wholeheartedly. And lead the future generations.)
2. thank GOD that my next sem's timetable didn't clash, i could continue studying 4 modules. jy:)
3. thank GOD for ubf's bdae present♥
4. i wanna read finish my book.
5. i wanna go SHOPPING!!
6. I WANNA EAT DURIAN!!♥♥♥

2010-06-05T21:38:00.003+08:00

why do you have to re-appear again, when i've forgotten everything about you?
why do you have to call at the unexpected time?
why are you always on and off away from me?
why do you always keep encouraging me, telling me what to do?
and so, why do i ended up telling you all my troubles?
为什么? - you can always read my mind

i've stopped making myself falling into this bottomless pit
so will you help me?

you'll still be my best friend, i promise.

first, I've already mention i won't quit.
second, I've left six months more,
though they don't care but its still my responsibility
i guess it's worth trying.
life's still great, huh? :)

2010-06-04T01:48:00.000+08:00

i feel so lethargic
so depress over with so many stuffs.
work, school, results.
and now i'm starting to complain, AGAIN!

i really really feel so tired.
i asked GOD,"why?"
i can't quit school, i can't
all i think was what grandma wants me to do.
but still i thank GOD for my results.
what he didn't give me,
it's even more that i need to stand firm on his promises.

my enrollment for next sem its on the 17th june.
worst, it clashes with my mission trip to m'sia.
now, i need to find someone to go on behalf of me, and
handle all those admin stuffs.
i'm so bloody busy that i've forgotten that sunday its the first week of the month.
and there's no one there to remind me about church stuffs.
i feel so so so helpless.

i'm working in the morning tml,
and yet i'm here typing all this shit.
i need sleeps.

2010-05-23T00:57:00.003+08:00

2 years ago I was living with my abusive father who never gave me lunch money and would rarely feed me dinner.

Even though my father threatened to hurt her if she came to see me, my grandma, who lived a half an hour away, drove to my school every week to bring me lunch money just so I could have one meal a day.

My grandma♥♥ GMH.

During the Vietnam War, I was disfigured as a result of an explosion.

Many of my fellow soldiers' wives left them because they were deformed, and most of these soldiers committed suicide.

My wife kissed every scar on my face and promised, "I'll never leave you. I love you. I'm proud of you." She GMH

realize how their marriage vows were kept true.
GOD knows, he understands my needs, and his grace is sufficient.
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you" [Matt 7:7]

2 very lovely articles i saw while browsing thru the web :D

getting my results next thursday.
idk what i'm thinking right now.
idk if it's good or bad.
but all i can say it's i should trust :)

i'm currently on a book "where is GOD?"
very interesting book i saw @ a bookstore,
and so i bought it.
i wanna let jietong be the 2nd person to read this book.
"i'm sorry, i didnt get to help much.
i'm always loss for words when i see you.
we never give up praying for you.
don't give up:D
yup, i'll never understand the pain you're going thru.
but right from the start, he never leaves you.
and he did a miracle in your life.
you just gotta trust and get well."

:):)

2010-05-18T14:09:00.011+08:00

gah, what's wrong with hotmail.com?

i feel like typing,
so ...where should i start from?
how about this?
"you gave me so many opportunities,
yet i never took that chance to speak my faith to him"

right @ that moment, time stopped.
i could only hear my heart beating,
so i made a promise to GOD.
i felt guilty
recalling my past,
which brings me back to a place where i talked to her.
she's the one person i've spoken so much for 21 years.

i do not have many close friends,
and i lose that chance to speak to them.
but for now, at least try.
every single lost souls,
never stop praying.

it's not easy to do so.
both of us, we can talk everything under the sun.
he's the only one FRIEND whom teaches me lessons in life.
that's the kind of friend i wanna cherish, i wanna hold on forever.
but when there's times when i tried talking to him about religious stuffs,
dejected is the word to describe :(
i don't deny that, I fell in love with our friendship.
but telling the truth of my savior GOD overtakes much more than that earthly feelings i wanna say to him.
may or maybe not, don't stop praying.
and that eternal life is the best thing he can get in life for free.
nothing makes me happier seeing him getting saved.

my promise to GOD
courage, perseverance, trust.

2010-05-11T12:15:00.003+08:00

fmi: i'm starting school on 5th july 2010
its just only one1/2 months of my time working :(

other than working time,
i need meet-ups.
1) 小明
2) seventh♥
3) steamboat buffet next friday with uni mates (if possible)
4) joyciee
5) flyer people?

yest was fun.
even though, i slept halfway thru that boring movie.
even though, i had to walk over that stupid bridge.
even though, my feet and shoulder aches.
even though, you kept making fun of me.
i'll treat you to flyer, i promise
i'll do whatever it takes, to hold on to this (forever)
you're one of the greatest things that had happen to me

2010-05-06T12:25:00.004+08:00

"Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, an hour, days, months or even a year. But eventually it will subside and something else will take it's place. If I quit however, it lasts FOREVER!!!"

-Lance armstrong

dont give up! :D
always remember, GOD never forsake you, he loves you.
like how he sustained me thru my exams,
he will do so too during your toughest period of your life
just trust and wait patiently upon him.

"when you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place"

:D
and so, i'm still gonna wait another month for results.
life's great, when you know that he had conquered everything. ♥
exams had been a great testimony to me :)
-
i've been feeling very down with church stuffs last week, but
thanks babe for those encouragements.
thanks for your everything
i really do miss our genting trip.
十年的友谊 :) and many many more yrs to go.
you're the ones that made up all those 10 years of my life.
my dearest seventh♥♥ real true friends :)
it's been past a decade! :D:D:D

hungry~~ waiting for suki tml with flyer people.
i'm so gonna bury myself into work for the next 2 months :):)
and that's when the hard work comes again for next 6 months.
jy!

2010-04-28T17:53:00.002+08:00

i cried on the way home, just because of my first paper
OMG leh! :'( luckily nobody saw me, if not damn paiseh.
this phobia is like so bloody shit and scary
my soul feel like dying, literally.
i'm so so so so scared that i'll ****.
still, i choose to believe in myself.
but circumstances forced me to breakdown at times.
WHY!! i knew how to do it, but i gave up.
:'( urgh.
my one and only chance is gone.
you'll never know how i'm feeling right now.

2 more papers!
i'll still choose to work hard.
with double blessings, double strength, double wisdom that,
my Father provides.

GOD, i really wanna show your name to the people out there,
show your way
you can turn my situation around, possibly.
and this bible verse came right to me yest night.
-Philippians 4:13 and 4:6-7 :)
♥

2010-04-26T02:19:00.002+08:00

2am in the morning,

i'm still struggling with my econs.

what i did was keep memorising, drawing graphs, talking to myself with econs language.

all over again and again and again

&then tml, i've to bury myself with stats.

mugging over at xiao ming's place

:( @ pasir ris, omg man.

journey to the east -.-

goodest luck of all to those taking prices and market tml :)

my module next sem :( shucks.

jyjyjy! after exams i'm so gonna bury myself in work.

i know you're there watching over me :) ♥

i just want to do it for the both of you, bless me.

2010-04-24T17:22:00.002+08:00

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

i'm getting my dblcheese later
loves.
:)

stop procrastinating,
study hard kays :D

2010-04-23T12:07:00.002+08:00

:D:D my first paper on wed.

basically, i've almost completed all 3 modules.

so yea, but all those mugging makes me NUMB.

seriously, i can't breath.

notes on top of notes, stress, ultimate.

(but you don't see me stress, hur?)

actually, i stress when i'm at home. lol

then i'll have the tendency to give up.

worse, i still lack motivation to continue on revision :x

two weeks, all it takes

i really hope i can, really.

i want to trust GOD♥♥♥

much more stonger, i know.

meeting UBF real soon♥

please, give me my durian cake :)

i ♥♥♥ mugging.

2010-04-11T20:30:00.002+08:00

no mood to study today :(
TYVM TO YOU!
pissed me off, and the adults too.
damnit.
:'(:'(:'(:'(

where's my motivation?
hetic week for me-
working for 4 days.
and i'm just left with only 1 day to study :(
nvm,i shall wake up @ 9am

& one day you shall pay.

2010-04-09T20:47:00.004+08:00

yepss :D
i've studied another one more topic of stats today.
shall continue tml, i guess.

&
i'm still waiting, for my results :(
waiting for her to send me the ppt.
waiting ______. (:
exams, hur?
-FAITH-
♥

2010-04-04T21:57:00.002+08:00

我们呼求 - 赞美之泉
宝贵十架 - 赞美之泉
❤

geeeee, gotta work tml morning,
&then
mugging session agains :)
please-eee please, work triple hard!
cant wait for holiday,
cant wait for more work-$$. HAHA!
cant wait to graduate :(

didnt study at all today, my bad.
pleaseee-e. lol

shall sleep early tonight :D

be strong, babe! :)
♥

2010-04-04T01:12:00.002+08:00

I LOVE BAIDU.COM!! ♥♥♥♥
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! :):):):)

i can find 赞美之泉 songs on baidu.
and somemore it's from the latest album
OHMYGWADDDDDDDDDD!! :D

when all things fails,
and in the midst of struggling
you know where to head to :)

jyjy!

2010-04-02T23:17:00.002+08:00

WANIAO!!!x10
needa chiong finish my econs,
so to further carry on for my stats.

time waits for no human
(time is an independent variable) -.-
time to study,
time to work,
time for church,
less time to complain, hopefully.

i'll try my best to study tml and sunday night :(

i'm so hell bloody tired that i wanna give up everything now.
why is it that people can't understand?
depresseddddd shitt.
and its always because of you all, that's the reason i keep complaining non-stop.
GRACE, STOP IT. STOP!

2010-03-29T23:33:00.002+08:00

mugging session tml again!
can't tahan anymore longer.
geeeees :D

anyway, idk what's wrong with them.
what if one day i'm dead?
does it mean that, you guys cant do things yourself?
i'm not saying that i'm so wei da or whatever shit.
and stop _____ on others.
wdh.

i met a new friend today,
zee-ark :D HAHA!

2010-03-27T23:49:00.002+08:00

what is the world coming to?
rls is such a BOOHOO BIG THING NOW!
omg.
eh, i sense that everyone around me having this boohoo thing.
urgh, people. cheer up!
don't worry about tomorrow,
time will tell you :D

i feel f-a-t,
supper-it just now.
then, OMG, i realise my friend stayed at the same block with soohoon.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D
next time when i go visit cookie, i shall go visit my friend too.
lol, see i'm such a niceeeee friend :)

thanks for the satay treat
thanks for the ride home, friend :D
chatted till nobody business.
and it's back to the boohoo topic.
that girl is not worth your everything, man :)

gotta sleep early,
churchie.
koi-cafe ♥♥♥♥
meeting with barnyard and jessie ♥♥♥♥♥
-
monday, back to mugging, haircut, dyeee♥♥

2010-03-27T11:49:00.002+08:00

URGH! SEE!
thanks everyone for pissing me off, again!
no words to say,
HOPELESS,
always there's something cock up last min,
do stunt here and there.
wtf! i'm so serious hell disappointed with YOU!
this is not working anymore.

what a great start for today,
i can jolly well stay at home to study isn't it?!

2010-03-26T17:24:00.000+08:00

currently blogging in school. business stats lecture is killing me!! robbing my brain cells away. urgh, cant wait to end lesson. one more hour!! imagine studying on a friday at this time :( *cravings for koi cafe bubble tea* cutting my lovely hair on monday :D *HOPEFULLY

2010-03-23T12:01:00.001+08:00

study-yo!

bb! :)

-EDITED-
should i cut short my hair/or not?
i'm still talking with jessie-ah!
haven yet started on books. lol

2010-03-17T20:57:00.002+08:00

:( 2 things which pissed me off so badly!
1) business stats test tml
2) PEOPLE

okays, i worked till 4pm today,
initial plans was to meet my uni friend to study stats @ marina mac, 430pm
but this joker (seriously, she's a big joker!) came @ 1pm to study.
URGH, & when i came, she told me she wanna go walk walk -__-
cos she studied too long, omg wtf.
WTF YOU KNOW!? I WAS SO LITERALLY PISSED OFF AT THAT TIME.
i wanted to study yet you tell me you wanna leave.
and why at the first place she came so early for?
so i swallow everything and ACC HER FOR HALF AND HOUR w/o studying!!
then i left, so damn angry!
i will never study with her again after work!!
she can still suggest eating sushi lunch buffet while studying on friday.
WTFFFFF! she will never study lah, she'll just distract me!!
on top of that, i still have to waste money eating stupid sushi?-bloody yucks.
i'm gonna study with someone else, if not i shall be a emo shit loner!

why all the uni friends i had are all so ....
joker? selfish? faker? mind you, they are real selfish people
笑里藏刀

and then back home,
another bunch of people PISSED ME OFF!
when can they learn how to be responsible?
we should not try anymore,
let them degrade themselves
back to square one.
idc anymore! half a year, and i'm done!
i just do what i'm supposed to do for now,
im so hell busy with school and i' still needa work
yet people wont care abt others,
they only care about themselves.
so what for i bother?!
so damn fcking pissed off!

I WANT THAT AND THAT AND THAT!
I NEED SHOPPING THERAPY!!
meeting jessie on monday!!
:D:D

2010-03-15T00:18:00.003+08:00

seriously, i've no comments for that girl.
and there's this extra calefare, who goes around "concerning" everyone.
OMG.
you're right man, heartless, huh?
they are perfect in your eyes :)
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

i'm duper drained out from 3 hours of MUGGING!
brain-cells killed.
gah, gonna continue this kind of tortuous life, for 2 months.

morning lecture;
meeting jessie in the noon;
hope to get my new phone tml :)
& back to mugging life @ night.

great life for school kids-damn their holiday.

-
jyjy!!
jietong, you rocks!:D

2010-03-10T23:05:00.002+08:00

urgh, sucks.
now, i've to worry about time, money, exams,
and worst of all my that useless brother.
i wonder when i can get my things back.
argh,my anger still have subside yet.
neh-neh-pok!

i'm trying hard to isolate myself away from msn and fb.
hai, at least i'm on the good track now? i guess.
i've started studying for my tests next week.
and for upcoming exams during april.
oh gosh, i don't wanna fail again.
that scary thoughts fright me away.
can you imagine? failing 2 times?
means that i'm a complete idoit not suitable for studying.
right now, i need motivation, wisdom and strength :D

if calling someone a stupid/idoit, means they themselves are consider to be one too?
that "she" said i'm stupid today.
i wasn't offended, i was merly thinking about her words.
i felt that she wasn't any better than me.
holding a diploma cert, but working in this kind of environment?
well, her pay was high. but i still find it useless working down there lah.
(judy, you're smart to leave earlier) HAHA
.
i don't want to treat my job as a burden to me.

i've to mugshit.

i heard from mama that my neighbour uncle passed away on monday.
well, i went to NUH to visit jietong last sat and went over to see my neighbour as well
then the convo started with my parents and the uncle.
and so, my parents told my neighbour about GOD.
they actually talked quite a few times,
but this uncle- i feel that he's willing to change and he wanted to change his children.
he never had a chance to do so, and he died.
to me this uncle, i never tallked to him at all since the day i stayed here.
i only see him and smile:) , that's all.

and he's dead.
just like grandma,
the only difference is, i know where's grandma is

2010-03-09T12:22:00.004+08:00

i hate mugging for exams.
:(
i need motivation to really stick my ass to the chair
and start studying. boohoo!
pleasee, let me see some eye candy in school.
HAHA :x

i guess my feelings felt much better,
but you know, it's not easy to really forget it.
i'm still kinda pissed off @ him.
you're not in my position,
& you'll never get a chance to know how
living with someone so not trustworthy for 22 years.
i forgive, and forgive
but the same thing still happen again.
such a little trust don't even exist in a family,
what's there to say that there's trust between friends, or couples?
it's all bullshit!

i don't know how to talk to you anymore,
not even trust and forgive that you will change.
A STEALER WILL ALWAYS BE A STEALER!
you're such a failure!

2010-03-08T20:34:00.004+08:00

I WONDER WHY ON EARTH I'VE SUCH A BROTHER!
he's just a BIG ASSHOLE! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
pity my parents, pity my whole family.

seriously, just fcked it man!

a leopard would never change it's spots, How true this was.

farked.

my mouth says it, but
i don't really wanna curse and swear
i'm sorry, but its he forced me out.

2010-03-06T22:32:00.001+08:00

Waking up I see that everything is okay
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry
It's so beautiful, it makes you want to cry

This innocence is brilliant, it makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliant, please don't go away
'Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

This innocence is brilliant, it's so beautiful, it's so beautiful
This moment is perfect, please don't go away
I need you now, it makes me want to cry
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

2010-03-05T23:30:00.002+08:00

FCUK YOU LAH!
srlys, fcuk!
i'm damn angry and pissed off with stupid people.
annoying man! damns

2010-02-27T02:35:00.000+08:00

WHY!?
maybe GOD puts me in that place, for me to learn and also to guide others.
idk.idk.idk.idk.idk. why do they chose me to be that one?
it's the same, like why did GOD chose me out of so many people in this world?
because he loves me. (be thankful)
but, i don't think they love me. maybe.. it's because they want me to do that job.
or rather, learn!
yes, i'm learning. i always do.
but there's always different kinds of way to learn, am i right?
it doesn't have to be in this way.
observing others is also one kind of learning, isn't it?
yet idk if i'm doing the right thing now, or am i guiding anyone to the right path?
am i wrong? why is everything "don't care", "none of my business", "i only do it for the sake of doing", or rather "i'll do it unless i can gain something out of it"

this world is so corrupted
i feel so disgusted! everything is such a failure.
BINGO!, nothing's perfect.
-people take things for granted,
-kids nowadays "生在福中不知福"
they won't know the pain of working just to get the things you want.
my definition of kids = not in the labour force (get what i mean)
-including me, i'm not saying that i'm a saint.
-there's still so much to typetypetypetype.

i'm really not complaining, dont get the wrong idea.
i'm just expressing my feelings in a different way
BUT now, i need sleep.
zzz i'm gonna faint soon :/

ps: be strong, jt.
ps/s: imy, grandma
ps/s/s: i wish earth is a much more better place to live in

2010-02-21T23:42:00.004+08:00

this is serious hell! pekchek!
i regret studying.
i regret knowing all this people
i regret

try reading my 无字天书 ;)

2010-02-16T15:45:00.002+08:00

:)cny sucks man. lol
went back m'sia yest just for a few hours.
& i' cant even went to see grandma
and in s'pore: i went another grandma house for consecutive 4 days!
-.-
and please, don't talk to me about angpows

:( mad shit.
i'm studying @ home
having acc test on monday.
no time!! seriously.
so i've spent 2 hours studying 3 chapters.

went commercial break.

& i've gotta go back to study for econs.
tbt leh! lol

gosh, i needa go back grandma house later again.
-_____-
HAHA!

2010-02-12T23:47:00.003+08:00

busy, busy, busy
i'm a lil busy girl:)
this week was real chiong. hah

monday - school the whole day, met xuan toast after that
tuesday - schooled again
wedesday - working then meet CF peeps
thursday - schooled and worked
friday - schooled and worked

OMGGG i love this kind of hetic lifestyle
HAHAHA! OK i'm crazy.
and then after cny,
i've to worry about church stuffs, and upcoming exams.

work was fun today! :D
even though, being banned to the cold palace but still
had so much fun with the tiger mascot. LOL
talked crap, gossip lotss, maggie-mee-ed tgt :D

it's cny eve tml!
reunion dinner, steamboat. yay-ness!
but i've gotta work in the morning till 5pm.
cold palace tml again -.-

sunday!!
i know, i miss her:(
and it's time to go back
it's a must, once a year.

alrights, time check: 12.33 am
wishing everyone a happy lunar new year,
and happy valentine's day♥ (hmmm)

quoted by my lecturer:
"roses on v' day is a stupid thing"
yup, my sentiments too.
it's a total waste of money.
if you truly LOVE your other party, all other things doesn't even matter.

ps: when will that day ever arrive?

2010-02-07T10:50:00.001+08:00

some people just annoyed me A LOT!
irritated.

2010-02-02T01:34:00.002+08:00

argh, i'm just feel so bloody scared for exams now:(
argh. what if i fail my modules again?
how can one really trust? oh damn it!

church work's piling up
tests and exams coming!
money and time depreciating like mad.
what if he never appears?

my life is so so gone.
so i was wondering, if one day, i exchange place with jietong.
PRAY.PRAY.PRAY!

2010-01-31T20:16:00.002+08:00

WHAT A STUPID BITCH YOU ARE!
WHAT A CHILDISH KID YOU ARE!
YOU ALWAYS THINK THAT YOU'RE CORRECT,
AND PEOPLE'S WRONG
WHAT MY DAD SAYS IS ABSOLUTELY TRUE
YOU SAID THAT WE DON'T RESPECT PEOPLE,
THEN NOW, HOW ABOUT YOURSELF?!
STOP SAYING PMS,
YOU EVERYDAY ALSO WILL HAVE PMS, & THEN YOUR ATTITUDE COMES EVERY MIN
PLEASE, DON'T ALWAYS GIVE PEOPLE YOUR THAT F.UP ATTITUDE
NOBODY'S OWNING YOU ANYTHING!
IT'S JUST ONE BLOODY BOOK,
WHY IS IT SO HARD TO BRING HOME?
IT SHOWS ME THAT YOU DON'T WANNA PUT IN EFFORT TO DO YOUR JOB WELL
PLUS, I DIDN'T LAST MIN TELL YOU THAT YOU'RE BLOODY PIANIST FOR THAT DAY!

OH,

THANKS FOR SAYING US A HYPOCRITE, OR IRRITATING
COS YOU YOURSELF IS ONE TOO!
YOU DON'T LIKE THIS PERSON, YOU WILL ALSO TALK/LAUGH TO HER/HIM
I CAN UNDERSTAND, COS' I'M LIKE THIS SOMETIMES.
BUT~
WE ARE IRRITATING, ITS BECAUSE YOU IRRITATED US FIRST!

YOUR RESOLUTIONS:
1) IS TO SERVE GOD.
2) NOT TO LOSE TEMPER EASILY
-
BUT YOU'RE NOT DOING THAT NOW.
YOU JUST WANT THAT STATUS IN CHURCH.
SO WHAT, WE GAVE YOU THINGS TO DO.
YOU STILL COMPLAIN,
ITS OK, COS YOU'RE COMPLAINING EVERY SINGLE SAT AND SUNDAY.

SERIOUSLY, YOU'RE JUST A JOKER.
I CAN'T STAND YOU.
HAHA!
CONTINUE HATING ME, JUST LIKE WHEN I FIRST CAME INTO THIS CHURCH.
CONTINUE HATING ME, WHEN ZHIWEI BROKE UP WITH YOU PARTLY COS' OF ME
I FIND IT NO POINT RECONCILING WITH YOU,
COS' ITS SO MEANINGLESS.
THE RECONCILING PROCESS WILL BE ON EVERY SAT AND SUNDAY OF THE WEEK
EXCUSE ME,
WHO HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD TO PLAY GAMES WITH YOU?

EVERYTHING ABOVE I TYPED IS BASED ON FACTS I'VE SEEN LAST YEAR.
GOSH, EVEN WANTING IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN YOU IN CHURCH.
:D

YAR,
I'M EVIL
I'M A BLOODY BITCH NOW
I'VE SINNED
I'M SO NOT HOLY.
SAYING ALL THIS BEHIND YOUR BACK.
I AM ABSOLUTELY SURE, YOUR ATTITUDE AND TEMPER WON'T CHANGED FOR THE NEXT 100 YEARS.
YOU'RE GONNA SUFFER WHEN YOU GO OUT TO THE SOCIETY TO WORK.
ANYWAY, IDC! :x
AFTER TODAY, I HOPE I WON'T COMPLAIN AND BLOG ABOUT YOU ANYMORE.
COS'
WE DON'T GIVE A DAMN TO YOU!!

AND GOD SAYS "FORGIVE YOUR ENEMIES"
AND MUM SAYS "THIS IS BETWEEN HER RELATIONSHIP TOWARDS GOD, SHE WILL ANSWER IT TO GOD HERSELF WHEN SHE MEETS HIM"

I'M HONEST ABOUT MYSELF,
WHAT ABOUT YOU?
OOHHHHHHHHHH:)

TELL ME, HOW TO 彼此相爱 WITH HER?
LOL!

2010-01-31T18:18:00.002+08:00

the once i knew most match couple broke up.
hmmm..

goodnight all :)

2010-01-31T01:25:00.001+08:00

我现在的心情，就像以上图片所传达的。不想多说，也不想知道的太多。只希望日子能够过得好一点。
不奢望别人能够了解我多一点。
不可求我能够了解别人多一点。
只但愿别人可以少烦我多一点点。
心情，就会好一点。
如果你看得懂以上的图片，自然的你便会了解我。
你，是那人吗？

2010-01-31T00:57:00.003+08:00

BIG SIGH :'(
tell me, who understands?

2010-01-29T14:20:00.001+08:00

she's just got a bloody shit attitude,
which sometimes i cant stand her.
working later, gotta see some people faces
damn.

2010-01-27T23:40:00.003+08:00

BITCH-YO!!
BITCH-YO!!
BITCH-YO!!
BITCH-YO!!
BITCH-YO!!
BITCH-YO!!
BITCH-YO!!
BITCH-YO!!
BITCH-YO!!
BITCH-YO!!

mr.z,
STOP CURSING MY BROTHER!
HE'S ALIVE AND HE'S GONNA GET WELL!

2010-01-26T22:43:00.003+08:00

2 Corinthians 1:3-11
The God of All Comfort

that's a nice brother you can ever had
stay strong :)

why is the feeling so strong, again?

don't worry, this is not meant to be a sad post.
:)

2010-01-26T10:31:00.002+08:00

i'm just sitting infront of my com,
and laughing @ my previous entry.
HAHAHA!

i miss puffy♥
i miss UBF

ps: jietong, please get well soon :)

2010-01-25T23:12:00.003+08:00

ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!
ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!
ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!
ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!
ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!
ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!
ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!
ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!
ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!
ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!
ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOU!

♥♥
:)

2010-01-25T00:54:00.002+08:00

GRACE IS HUNGRY~
she feels weak
she feels useless
she feels that she's creating trouble for nothing
she feels that she can't help anyone

school tml:(

2010-01-23T01:03:00.001+08:00

BLOODY TIREDD!!
i need sleep
i need sleep
i need sleep
i need sleep
i need sleep
i need sleep
i need sleep
i need sleep
i need sleep
i need sleep
i need sleep
i need sleep
i need sleep
i need sleep,
super badly :(

unless..
i'm done, with gamazing race.

"death doesn't just take someone, it misses someone else,
and in the small distance between being taken and being missed,
lives are changed."

imy♥

2010-01-21T00:38:00.003+08:00

Have A Little Faith begins with an unusual request: an 82-year-old rabbi from Albom’s old hometown asks him to deliver his eulogy.

Feeling unworthy, Albom insists on understanding the man better, which throws him back into a world of faith he’d left years ago. Meanwhile, closer to his current home, Albom becomes involved with a Detroit pastor – a reformed drug dealer and convict – who preaches to the poor and homeless in a decaying church with a hole in its roof.

Moving between their worlds, Christian and Jewish, African-American and white, impoverished and well-to-do, Mitch observes how these very different men employ faith similarly in fighting for survival: the older, suburban rabbi, embracing it as death approaches; the younger, inner-city pastor relying on it to keep himself and his church afloat.

As America struggles with hard times and people turn more to their beliefs, Mitch and the two men of God explore issues that perplex modern man: how to endure when difficult things happen; what heaven is; intermarriage; forgiveness; doubting God; and the importance of faith in trying times. Although the texts, prayers and histories are different, Albom begins to realize a striking unity between the two worlds - and indeed, between beliefs everywhere.

In the end, as the rabbi nears death and a harsh winter threatens the pastor’s wobbly church, Albom sadly fulfills the last request and writes the eulogy. And he finally understands what both men had been teaching all along: the profound comfort of believing in something bigger than yourself.

Have a Little Faith is a book about a life’s purpose; about losing belief and finding it again; about the divine spark inside us all. It is one man’s journey, but it is everyone’s story.
_______________________________________________________________

Mitch Albom's books rocks, totally!!
i've read "tuesdays with morrie" and "for one more day"
AWESOMMME :D

and now,
everything comes back to square one again,
i know you're tired of doing all this, me too
but..
"don't give up, yet!"
GOD is always here,
always :)

♥
We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts..

2010-01-19T01:23:00.004+08:00

YESYES!
THIS IS IT!! :D
i love this to the max! ♥
i found it on a china online website:(
AND, it's SGD 355++
goodness!
i can use that money and get a new phone!

or this? SGD 180+++
OMGG :(
i doubt i can ever ever own them.

heading to bed soon, stop day-dreaming.
SHOPPING TOMORROW:)

2010-01-18T22:11:00.002+08:00

DAMN YOU!!!

guess the person(s)' name correct & i'll give you a prize.

depressing:(
i can't attend cos' i've got church on sat.
it's a super duper rare chance,
I WANNA GO TO THAT CAMPP!!
can i? :) HAHA!

2010-01-15T02:00:00.001+08:00

wants:
-that red sling bag from fossil
-AX watch♥
(both 2 items are in my last year bdae wishlist)
& i'm still want-ing it:)
-COTTON-ON, YAY! i'm cheap-.-
-more clothes?
-another pair of levi's jeans? (starts feb)
-NEW PHONE!! (starts march onwards)
-& to get all of the above, money is crucial.

okays, i shall start buying all soon.
:):) except that watch:(
it's not on the website, if not can ask jon to help.lol
& i've got this bad premonition that the bag will cost more than 100:(
i will save up, after march :/

& bad news, i spent 128 bucks just less than an hr for a katespade wallet.
hmm, haha:) too rush? think so.

wants are infinity~
today, do i realize that money is a want,
yes, at times it's hard having not enough $
and we do struggle with it.
but, money don't make the world go round.
i should be ashamed of myself, when i don't trust
cos' i know someone out there do really provide for my everything.

needs:
-school fees
-tuition teacher
-time management practice
-♥? ooppps
-wisdom from my almighty father
-GOD:)

you can meet the most important person in the world.
i've met him, what about you?
- John 3:16

2010-01-13T23:31:00.002+08:00

everytime i complain,
you'll always scold me, without any reason.
don't say you love me,
don't say you concern about me,
don't EVEN say you'll help me!!

i don't even have a choice to choose!
everything is "planned out nicely"
you lived till 70 or 80+ then you die,
you work, school, play
so what've you gained all these years?
LIFE IS TOTAL BULLSHIT!!
it's just nothing, empty.
but..
i need you(:
i'm sorry.

"one word turns into a war"
"why is it the smallest things that tears us down?"

2010-01-10T20:10:00.003+08:00

DELETED-

do you have a guilty conscious?
nope, i don't have.

2010-01-06T12:23:00.002+08:00

it frustrates me,
idk why people enjoy making small problems into huge ones.
idk why people enjoy creating problems for us.
it's not fun at all handling so much stuffs!
damn it, seriously!

i wanna get back to studying.
i wanna get back to reading the bible!
i wanna get back to work.
AND...
i wanna get back to the toilet, my stomach hurts:(

2010-01-04T11:44:00.003+08:00

3 more hours to the official opening of school.
nahhhhhhh!!
my final last chance,
i wanna put in more effort to pass all modules:)
higher challenges, more determination!
and i need to start reading the bible from revelation?
extra work needed for church, school and work
and home....?
determination again!
we shall see again, maybe one day i will fall.
overall, i'm still a human.
FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS!! :D

why do some people aim for a rls as a resolution?
haha, oppps
i rather not, cos whatever GOD gives is the best.
it's just a matter of time:)
and, I'M STILL YOUNG!! HAHA!!
as long as my heart is focus towards him, his grace is enough for me:)

lunch time! woo! :D

2010-01-03T19:25:00.003+08:00

God Watches
As Satan plots
As the Earth turns
As life blots

As feelings thrive
As stars dive
As people wonder
As dreams slumber

Be one in yourself
Be one in the same
Not one in a million
Not just a name

Stay true to your being
That you should be seeing
Dwell in your best . . .
. . . and let the Lord to the rest

_for all who seek and find these fortunes
shall have humble skies on Heaven and Earth.

HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
resolutions?
hah,
oh i wanna change a new phone
is that a resolution? :)

2009-12-16T15:54:00.002+08:00

SCREWED RMIT!!
no big deal i had to re-module again.
you're just simply wasting money and time!
yet, i even had to see your stinking attitude!
URGH! damn F up!
=================================

SHOPPING THERAPY LATER!! :)

2009-12-15T19:32:00.003+08:00

yes! they just did it!
pissed me off to the MAX!
i just couldn't control my emotions.
i guess it wasn't the right time yet to handle all this stuffs.
*comments kept*
so just SHUTUP and smile :)

an angry person is a hungry person.
extremely. HAHA!

ps: ♥?

2009-12-04T02:17:00.002+08:00

should i quit school?
or should i just try hanging on?
i know, life isn't all about studying and school.
i'm disappointed, scared
the more i hang on, e more worst it's gonna get.
but i need to be constantly reminding myself whom i'm studying hard for.
"give me strength, wisdom, all that i need"
great things can't be done within a day,
so you've got to try harder! :)
another wrong choice again, but it's ok
i'll be fine :)

oh yea, & i'm travelling back to m'sia again next week :)
i'm going back on helping a children's church camp.
YAY MAN!
maybe i'll get to see my new friend again. HAHA!

why am i always consoling myself?

2009-12-02T00:58:00.005+08:00

happy 12th birthday! :) ♥
now e sad thing, more responsibilities.
with church, work and school :(
seriously, who loves growing up?
anyway, thanks people♥

and it's gonna be later!
i gotta face it strongly.
my heart is beating a thousand times faster than per normal.
pray that i don't fall back down hard.

ps: make me smile.
ps: make me smile.
ps: make me smile.
ps: make me smile.
ps: make me smile.

2009-11-30T21:34:00.000+08:00

2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

[Chorus]

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our good-bye

2009-11-30T18:03:00.006+08:00

:) went back m'sia yest for grandpa celebration.
and 顺便 celebrate my cousin and mine b'dae :D
i've got this super lovely necklace from auntie
& someone gave me a toothbrush as a b'dae present -.-
but thanks anyway! HAHA

met a new friend in m'sia :)
& he taught me different piano-ing skills
i was like going "WAHHH"
damn pro kays, then i realised my skills sucks totally.
LOLLOL!

great, back to reality now.
gotta start working hard from tml.
actual b'dae: 2 days later.
results day: 4 days later! :(:(

don't ever fall apart, leaving me completely breathless
i've gotta be strong.
ps:____

2009-11-24T12:45:00.003+08:00

will i ever have just a peaceful birthday on my day?
i doubt so, kays!
nobody knows what i'm fretting inside.
ya, you see me i can laugh with you, talk with you.
i've seeen the ugliness side of humanity.
seriously, YUCKS!
the biggest prob is not that shortie anymore,
you can say that i'm immune to it.

(DELETED)
c'mon, i dont understand why do you still hate me?
it's been so long since you broke up with him?
and obviously, it's really really not my fault that i broke up you guys!
the worst thing, if you hate me you still can laugh with me?
dont' you think its weird? -.-
but from another view, maybe you don't hate anymore or
maybe yl lied to me.
whatever is it, someone once told me,
"adults do things in a different manner, and they dont quarrel with kids"

(DELETED)
luckily i have aili with me :D

having two days off from work is really shiok!
so, i stayed at home watching shows online :)
literally rotting @ home! I LOVED THE FEELING!
HAHA.
& back to work tml and thursday!
and i'm gonna go malaysia~ !!! on friday.
all my weekends over @ m'sia, sunday i'm gonna go back again
cos' of my grandfather birthday celebration,
and pre bdae celebration for my cousin and mine 21st! :D
I WANT DURIAN CAKE!! UBF still owns me one :(
maybe a family celebration is kinda good, you know.
so many years, maybe to me this is like a 2nd-3rd time they are doing this.
NO FRIENDS. cos' i know.
comments are kept to myself.

ps: it's pretty contradicting

2009-11-13T00:54:00.003+08:00

UBF back! ❤

GRACE ; make me SMILE says:
*you got miss me not?
*oppps

King Of War says:
*u say la...

GRACE ; make me SMILE says:
*i dunnoe :'(

King Of War says:
*of course have la...
*haahaa
*u la...
*got miss mi...

GRACE ; make me SMILE says:
*OF COURSE GOT LAH, GOT DREAM OF YOU ALSO

:D
i know, i know.
he's just making me happy.
i can say, our acting skills were the best. LOL
don't know did he bought anything back for me?
my bdaee :( HAHA!
well, bet he didn't. oppps

worked for the past 4 days.
and i'm off tml, finally.
meeting for shopping, YAYYYS! ❤
i felt like a working zombie :/
everyday work, sleep, work, sleep
no motivation :(

and for months, i finally on the tv to watch today.
my bro bought a new 42" philips full HD plasma tv!
OMG!freaking BIGG! my living room look mini now.
okays, needa sleep soon, probably.

ps: i hate taxi-drivers.
dont' they know how to drive?

ps.s: and it's friday the 13th!

2009-11-07T22:40:00.003+08:00

after so long, i went shopping again!
SCREAMS* HAH!
town-ed with vickie, to get pik's bdae present :D
woah woah woah, had sushi for dinner, again -.-
damn sian already! anyways,
had so much fun eating, and heart breaking.
shopped around ION, and i spent 53.80SGD in 2 hours :/
bought a cute lovely top, and a jacket with HOODIE! ( that's e most impt point)
and my friend spent more than 200SGD. OMGGG!
FIRST TIME, first time.
i see her spend so much! :D
she's so gonna broke. haha.
-
well, i saw MANY MANY LOVELY THINGS THAT I REALLY WANNA GET.
why not let's get to the main point?
okays, up its my 21st bdae wishlist :) geeeees
1. that red sling bag from fossils priced-unknown.
2. that lovely shoe and skirt from pull&bear priced 60SGD EACH!
3. emporio armani couple watch priced 600+SGD EACH!
4. MY AX watch that i've been eyeing for a long long long time priced- 200+SGD.
5. a small lil wallet which it's enough to put a few cards, and money :D
6. i don't mind red packets :)
and fyi:
for no 2. both items must come together, and
maybe you guys can skip no 3. away, cos' UBF getting one for me.
HAHAHAHAHA!
♥
ok, i'm so demanding! LOL!

and i'm so gonna work triple hard before school re-opens again.
it's coming back to me again. :D
till thennnn, goodnights, lovely all
i'm gonna start watching my 'huan zhu ge ge' ♥
:)

i miss UBF :(

2009-11-07T00:29:00.003+08:00

:D exams over! hurray!
econs, last paper done so so so badly :(
i just wish i could pass, that's all i hope.

after all that disappointment,
headed over to lavender, collect my passport, then
train-ed to meet UBF :)
initial plans-movied!
but don't know why ended up shopping.
LOL! had sushi for lunch/dinner.
his belated bdae' treat from me :)
went back our fav hunt again. haha.
headed home around 11 plus,
and the great thing is i left my passport in his bag.
like a dumb ass. lol
okays, i'm so gonna miss him ♥
he's going thailand from tml till the 11th.
bon voyage :D

next was spending my last 2 days working.
rly buried myself working.
:( and back to the sad topic,
-
i really envy friends having good rls with their parents.
but why not me?
why can't they just understand me better?
why can't they just know what i really need the most?
not all those material stuffs they could ever give me,
not a cosy home cos' i dont think i'm living in a happy family.
not all their "love" towards me.
the truth is, i somehow start to detest this family.
i've a fcuked up brother, which is useless.
i'm sorry, i'm bad.
but there's no way i'm gonna shut my mouth forever.
you all make me feel like running away from home, so many times.
you always make me cry alone in the middle of the night.
some basic trust you can't even had for me,
so what's there left? to even talk about.
i know, there's no one to help me.
i'm fated to have this kind of parents for the rest of my fcuked up life.
the only thing i'm thankful is for my grandma.
don't ever say that we're a FAMILY, we should share problems tgt.
but the fact is that, so what if i tell you?
YOU JUST SIMPLY WONT UNDERSTAND!!!
cos we are just merely showing others what a family should be,
such a pity!
if i get to have kids in the future,
i will teach them the real meaning of what it means to be "FAMILY"
YA! i'm stupid like what they say, my brothers getting worst each day,
it's all because of their stupid way of raising up a child!! :'(
since they don't trust me.
so, whatthefcuk do i need to trust them!?

2009-11-02T01:36:00.001+08:00

ONE MORE PAPER TO GO! :D
ECONOMICS! GO GO GO!
i can't wait to get rid of you, but @ the same time
can't wait till 4th nov,
and i'm meeting my UBF after paper :)
♥ YAYY-NESS! both of us can't wait.
& our MSN's pm says so :D
i still own him a belated birthday gift.
maybe needa wait till i get my pay.
or a treat from me over dinner/lunch.
greatness!

weekend over in school for exams till noon.
sucks totally :(
then headed over to eugenia's 21st.
helped her out before the party started
and, i saw PUFFY PUFFY♥!
love love him :D haha
he's the first dog that i'm not scared :)
he's so adorable and cuteee!

and great!-
i'm working on a sunday.
BAD DAY!
saw MR.A
on top of that, MR.B sms me!
DAMN THIS TWO PEOPLE!
ruin my mood totally, especially MR.A

okays, gotta sleep early.
gonna go school tomorrow to study for my last paper.
screams* my brother went thailand,
AND I CAN GET TO USE THE CAR FOR A WEEEK!
sweeeets :)
i'm gonna drive to school tomorrow:)
whahaha.

goodnights, earthlings :D
♥

2009-10-28T00:36:00.002+08:00

LOVE YOU, BABE! ♥
8 years plus another 88 more years to go!
:)
HAPPYBIRTHDAY!

great birthday celebration over @ shan's place.
ooh, that's great. i studied only for like merely 2 hours?
then left to her place help for steamboat session.
oppps :X
ended up watching some doctor operation show.
HAHAHAHA!
shit man, i needa chiong the whole day tml,
first paper-marketing on thursday.
wish me with lots of luck!
i need it badly. booohooo.
okays, and i'm so afraid now :(

so, can i count down to my birthday?
:( or :) ?

2009-10-25T21:10:00.003+08:00

i will spend the next three days burying in books!
i don't wanna repeat modules, that sucks.
-
TRUST AND HAVE FAITH!
i need you in my most crucial point of time.
you've been always there even when i fall so badly
i know you will never forsake me.
:D

goodluck to samuel & jielong having their O's
:) have faith!
GOD will always take care of us!

2009-10-23T03:22:00.003+08:00

time check: 3.22 am
WOW! :)
i wrote my marketing notes till i freak out!
wrote till my stomach growling in pain.
JERRY! but no victims to crunch on. LOL
mummy came in, nagged non-stop.
thank GOD i'm done.
so i can study revising tml.
marketing, my first paper next week.
plans tomorrow-
needa revise thru accounting, and start on econs
shall continue marketing in the night!
ohman, pleaseee no distractions! :D
distraction kills me. lol

went work in the morning
hahaha. met new friend :)
gotta work on saturday too @ esplanade
luckily, till 4.30 so i can chiong home for revision.
bless me with abundant good luck for my exams!
♥ i HAVE TO PASS! :)

"nothing is over till you stop"
i feel like crying, i don't know why.

2009-10-20T22:54:00.002+08:00

damn it!
DAMN IT REALLY!
:'(
i failed my marketing test by 0.5 marks
& i failed my accounting test by 1 marks
OH, DAMN IT! :'(
how i feel like dying!
please, stop the tears.
okays, maybe i'm too drama.
but i'm really very sad
OMG, i just wish to get a passed.
that's all i expect, isn't it very hard?
STUPID MCQ QUESTIONS DESTROYED EVERYTHING!
but thank GOD, i passed economics.
yayy! i got a distinction for test II :)

i've been studying for three consecutive whole days!
i just wish my effort would not be paid off :(
i still left one more week till exams.
trust and have faith! :)
i'm so exhausted from studying everyday morning till night.
now, i got to continue chiong for my marketing
and reach school by 9AM to study :'(

such a saddist post.
tsk.

2009-10-17T23:28:00.002+08:00

life's the same.
-
went fellowship @ jietong's house.
BBQ! :)
fun x4 HAHA!
for no reason, i was like super drained out!
urghh. i nearly fell asleep in the room.

yea, was like sudden pissed off with someone's mum,
i'm so sorry to say that, she's a bit retarded.
no freaking brains to think!?
OMG!

somehow, i seems to have forgotten what you did,
even your existence seems nothing to me
but...
why do i feel that,
i'm falling back again?

2009-10-12T13:42:00.002+08:00

so i've starting revising for my exams,
then i got hit by this accounting question.
therefore, i went to ask my "friend" about it.

WHAT THE BIG F IS THIS!?
i kindly asked you about this question
and yet you go one big round not to answer my questions,
yet you said" omg, you started studying already? i'm still slacking"
"i dont really know cos i never listen during lectures"
OH YEA,
WHO GIVES A BLOODY DAMN IF YOU'RE SLACKING?
AND WHICH STUPID PERSON WILL BELIEVE IN WHAT YOU SAID?!
IF YOU DIDNT LISTEN DURING LECTURES,
TELL ME HOW DID YOU PASSED ACCOUNTING TEST!
OH, ONE KIND-IRKS ME OFF!
BELIEVE ME, YOU'LL START STUDYING TONIGHT OR
MAYBE YOU'VE ALREADY STARTED.
what leh? c'mon lah.
what's so secretive about preparing earlier for exams?
yea lah, i don't have smart brains like you.
i dont need to aim HIGH, cos you'll eventually fall down harder than me.
so dont act in front of me, and start to show off under your wolf's skin.

- story (part two)
i TOTALLY can see how people abandons old friend for newer ones.
stop saying you'll meet up all this shit and stuffs.
it's so obvious that you're busy with new friends.
digusted*

walls have ears, can't voice it out too much.
MSN me, and i shall spam your convo. HAHAHA

okays, THE END!
back to studying:)

2009-10-11T02:47:00.003+08:00

this place is where i openly SCREAMS out all my trouble,
and life's hardest moments.
yet once again, my own stupidity drag me down.
HAHAHA! it's okays, its okay!
keep breathing..
no worries, i've not fallen down to the bottom.
i'm still strong, with GREAT friends around me.
though, they don't mention much.
but always the presence counts :D

and-
i'm ALWAYS glad that UBF called me immediately i sms him
:)
you never fail to make me LAUGH REAL HARD,
even though you're busy.
you never fail to always concern about me,
even though you don't know what's happening around me.

HAHA, i always seems to be like "advertising" this GREAT friend of mine!
♥ he's great, no doubt! :)

i was talking to jessie online,
sudden random topics on friends.
indeed, human change, you agree?
and normally they change better for the worst.
i admit, i've changed too, for so many years.
i've seen friends change, by their actions and the words they speak out.
that shortie changed too, he's too scary for me to deal with.

so, define what's life?
it's nothing but just troubles.
face it. hah :)

2009-10-10T00:35:00.012+08:00

NEVER be a

:) be a BIG WINNER

even though,

but nevertheless, they are loved ♥

no doubt,

they are there!

our aim in life? :D

always
be thankful, and count your blessings!

lastly, ALWAYS ALWAYS REMEMBER TO,

© GRACE ♥

_________________________________________

Your Today's Advice is
" Do small things in a great way. "
yay! :)
-
though FB's quizzes always cheat people feelings.

then, i realize..
my MSN's PM still wrote 外婆.
no doubt, she's still living in my memories,
guess.. it couldn't be removed.
the pain same goes to those who lose their loved ones.
:)

2009-10-08T23:55:00.003+08:00

that little boy story touches everyone hearts,
including MINE! :)
even yanglong posted onto his blog!
♥

continue to JIAYOU!
goodnight, earthlings

-
GOD, pleasee, show me your plan.
will it be ok, if i took that step?
just another chance?

2009-10-07T12:50:00.005+08:00

okays, so life now is just school and work.
pretty nothing much to update.
and now,
I'M GONNA HAVE A GOOD AFTERNOON SLEEP!
freaking tired cos' of morning classes.
beys :D

edited/
UBF CALLED ME! LIKE FINALLY!! ♥
:) despite his busy schedule!!
YAYYYS! i bet he misses me too! lol
thankful for him and his concern :)

i don't know why but somehow-
i miss you..

2009-10-05T19:42:00.002+08:00

so what if i've failed,
so what if i did no better than you?
stop your OMG or HUH!
whatthefcuk, URGH!
rantings*
-
okays, back to studying
hah.

tell me, is this ♥ ?
will i fall into the same trap, again?
:(

2009-10-04T01:25:00.003+08:00

:D 中秋节快乐
yayys!
seven hours of work @ flyer in the morning.
then, down-ed to church for celebration.
:) sweeeeets ♥ celebration was fun.
many babies/children to play with! :)
the best part was with the candles playing after church
affair AILI & WANTING! wohooo!
wished there were more people.
the more the merrier! :)
wells, next time perhaps!
watched them eat supper,
and now i'm regretting!
cos i'm freaking hungry~ OHMYGWADDD!
shall be jerry- in action! :/ opps.

took the last train home, blablabla
MSN-ed with kuan. geeees.
okays, he's gonna owned me a ride home on his car.
wheeee~
sexy owned me an icecream treat.
wifey's loverboy owned me a movie treat!
OHYAYYY! :):) LOVED! ♥

&finally, i met vickietay yesterday!
♥ double!
though i missed the last episode of my fav. show
more meetups, soon!

basically, this few days
GRACE had been super busy with test and projects, school! AND WORK!
yawnss.
first paper-28 oct'09
last paper-4 nov'09 :D
less than one month! jiayou's!
oh, belated children's day!
includes ME! :) my six-some, and seventh!

-
got my accounting test results.
results: FAILED!
9/20, OMG
one more mark!!! why can't the lecturer be more lenient?
anyway, my own expected results were 5/20. LOL!
faker friends :( OHMYGWADD!

2009-09-28T16:32:00.004+08:00

i've watched finish 福氣又安康.
woowee!
yangyang rocks! ♥
next show:下一站，幸福
:D

gonna get back to my project-IT!
-which in fact, i copied ALOT from websites :/oppsie, lol
study for upcoming test and exams :(
gotta start planning my schedule for work.
penniless again :(
gotta be a busy girl, for one month ahead.
try not to date me out, uh. HAHA!
endure for one more month, and i'm free! :)

/
一千个伤心的理由-张学友
i don't understand why am i so addicted over this song.
OLDIE MAN! LOL!
and i'm blasting full max over itunes. HAHA.
okays, totally mad.
beys.

2009-09-28T01:41:00.002+08:00

You love the crowd... a party animal! Too many “friends”, you can’t easily tell which among them is real and not...

You’re usually expressive... Open about your emotions and most of the time willing to talk about it.

You search for love... you’re a hopeless romantic (????) and every time you enter a relationship, you give your all and believe “this is the One.”

You have so many ideas in mind... You’re creative and aggressive! If you want something, you’ll do anything to get it!

You’re an ideal boyfriend/girlfriend... You don’t care if your partner doesn’t really love you as long as you love him/her. You give your all...

You’re undoubtedly good-natured! Most of the time, people are confident to approach you because they know you will consider them.

You love actions... with the hero-like taste! (yeah, wo shi SUPERMAN!) You focus on your strengths and use them to protect persons/things that are important to you.

:D what a psychology personality test!
LOL!

take care my wifey ♥
swenses soon, yo!

SHOUTOUT: LIFE'S GREAT WITHOUT YOU!!
:) screams* x100 million!
your sight makes me sore-eye!
no doubt! :D wooooheeee!!

goonight earthlings
:D ♥

2009-09-24T23:49:00.002+08:00

oh GREAT!
i'm supposed to stay @ home for project.
but then, i headed out :(
boohoo!
went queensway as wifey wanted to alter her jeans.
anchorpoint-IKEA.
photos up on FB :)
spotted this lovely shoes @ charles & keith :)
oppps, piercing :/
shitty bombom.

project-it NOW!
:D
six-some dating? WHEN!?
♥

2009-09-23T01:37:00.002+08:00

MY BELOVED SIX-SOME!
DARLINGS!
♥

"she got a smile on her face,
and a fcuk you attitude,
because from this day on,
she's living life on herself."

"there comes a time a life when you have to let go of
all the pointless drama & the people who create it
& surround yourself with people who make you laugh
so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good.
after all, life is too short to be anything but happy."

screams* HAHAHAHA!

-jerry in action, again? :D

2009-09-21T15:58:00.003+08:00

RAWRRRRR! :D
GRACE IS A HAPPY LITTLE SUPERSTAR
hah!
-
ignored*
ignored*
ignored*
ignored*
ignored*
ignored*
ignored*

ignorance is bliss!
♥

2009-09-20T23:48:00.006+08:00

SH scold fcuk cos her boss sold off her mini white van
LOL! dont' worry lah :)
you still have a vehicle to drive,
except it's fuglier :D
drive me out to mac :)
♥

ever seen 火山爆发?
really sorry GOD, but i've got to SHOUT everything out!
nobody's perfect, everyone sin including me.
-
FCUKING FLARE UP WITH EVERYTHING!
DON'T PUT WORDS LIKE I'M TRYING TO COME IN BETWEEN YOU ALL!
I'M ABSOLUTELY NOT LIKE YOU!!
DON'T TRY SO HARD TO KEEP THINGS FROM ME.
COS' THE TRUTH WILL EVENTUALLY BE CLEARLY SHOWN OUT!
SO YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO WILL FEEL ANXIOUS,
FEEL UPSET, DEPRESSED WHEN HE'S NOT WITH YOU!
SO ARE YOU TELLING ME THAT I'M IN NO POSITION OF FEELING THAT TOO!?
ACTING LIKE SOME ANGEL IN FRONT OF ME!?
I TOOK THE WRONG STEP IN ENCOURAGING YOU AT THE FIRST PLACE!
IF YOU THINK YOU CAN BELIEVE IN HIM WHOLEHEARTEDLY,
THEN TRUST ON HIS PROMISES, DON'T EVEN GIVE A FCUKING COMPLAIN ABOUT HIM!
YOU ONLY KNOW HOW TO CHERISH SOMEONE AFTER YOU LOSE EM'
LOSER!
I'M NOT SOME BITCH WHO WILL CLING ONTO THIS FCUKING PROBLEM FOREVER!
AND I DON'T GIVE A DAMN IF YOU CHOSE TO FCUKING BITCH-ED 'BOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK!
CAN'T I BE PISSED OFF TOO!?

I SAID I WON'T HESITATE TO KEEP WORDS TO MYSELF.
:)

Kristinia Debarge-Goodbye
HAHAHAHAH!

YEAH!
我是 SUPERSTAR! :)

2009-09-20T17:37:00.002+08:00

SW!-
I SWEAR,
i won't hesitate to keep any words inside me.

yes, i'm an agitated person NOW!
haha- 我要去散心

2009-09-20T02:24:00.002+08:00

this seems so wrong,
weird..
how could they rolled down so easily?
it took me how long to persuade myself-?
carrying on life without you,
no conversations between us,
no ranking of the past,
tore you away from my weak heart?
never let you back in..?
but it's always your appearance and words destroy all my effort.
did i not try any harder?
-
why can't i forgive you?
why can't i forget everything?
why can't we be friends?
why can't everything rewind to where we first known?
idon'tknow..
i've seriously can't find an answer for you.
how should i even start going about searching?
trust what you said?

难堪的话不用说
你的眼神打败我的沉默
我闭住了笑容虚伪了宽容
应该不会太做作
坦白的你痛了我
装作若无其事不能说
难受是让我看到她之后明白
她比我优秀?
爱你爱到这我只想好好走
总要有一个人先放手
笑着让眼泪流才会有将来怀念的理由

wishes don't come true in reality.
it only exist in my dreams.
-
how much effort did you put to get him back?
"effort"?
cos' of your "efforts"
no more, you know?
i doubt you dont realize this.

2009-09-18T20:47:00.002+08:00

I threw all of your stuff away. I’m gonna clear you out of my head. I tear you out of my heart.
And ignore all your messages. I tell everyone we are through. 'Cause I'm so much better without you.
I swore that I'd never let you back in.

you said move on, so where do i go?
HELLO! WAKE UP YOUR BLOODY IDEA!
you expect people to change,
you expect people to listen to your words,
the person who should changed it's you!
but instead you changed better for the worst!
oh dear, what am i doing over here!?
why am i ranting this over and over again!?
it's completely OVER now!
i don't see a need to be upset over you.
FCUK YOU ANYWAY!
:D
yea, you didn't see wrongly.
FCUK YOU!

after all what he did,
希望我真的能放下这一切

2009-09-17T14:38:00.002+08:00

i did revised for my test-
okays, with my laptop on.
LOL!
and SHUCKS!
i've forgotten all that i've memorized previously
eeeeeeeerrrya!
& i'm still going for a date with my wife, later on.
i'm so deadd,now!
frankly speaking lah, i think it's so dumb.
it's totally impossible to study 7 topics within a few days.
yea, so i must continue 自我安慰
and work harder for my upcoming big exams.
:)
chill it, babe!
GO MAN! haha

you never failed-
to make me go crazyy.
did you ever try loving and hating someone @ the same time?
i did it.
but i told myself, i wont' be defeated by you!
not at this crucial point of time.
:)

2009-09-15T20:43:00.003+08:00

i'm left with marketing paper :)
thankGOD!
& then i realised OMFG!
"i'm left with only one more month to my final semester exams!"

29-Oct Thursday
10.00am - 1.15pm
MKTG1199 Marketing Principles

31-Oct Saturday
10.00am - 1.15pm
ACCT2060 Introductory Accounting

4-Nov Wednesday
10.00am - 12.45pm
ECON1016 Macroeconomics 1

♥ HOLIDAYS! :)

date check: 15th September 2009
ohno! like never-ending..
3 hours paper, i think i will roll on the floor dying.
LOL like miss roller pattern. HAHAHAHAHAH!
am i in the right decision? like NO? or maybe?
2.5 years, maybe.. maybe not.. i will survive!
with judiong and wife's encouragements :D
with grandma, with GOD-
i tell myself, 我一定可以 :))

but-my wife,
something for you,
decide carefully whether you wanna step back into school.
:) of course, i'm not discouraging you lah.
ultimate choice is yours :)
there's pro and cons in working and studying too.
yawns~

life? hmm, it's kinda interesting.
"there's a point in your life,
when you get tired of chasing & trying to fix everything
but it's not giving up...
it's realizing that you don't need
certain people, the insanity
and the DRAMA they bring. "
:D
the past that you gave..
even though the wound is still there,
but glad that it's over.
cos' i'm not the one who is suffering now.
believed that tomorrow will be a better day! :)
i still clinging onto this belief that he will provide(someone...)
it'll come to a point of time, where things will improve gradually
you just gotta believe in it :))

2009-09-14T11:36:00.001+08:00

JIA YOU!
hopefully..
it's just trying my very best for tests and exams.
just a passed will do, don't even need to get 100%
i don't see a need to snatch status with STRANGERS,
and compare results.
this kinda of people yucks me off.
comparing results are so commonly found in school,
even in my poly days.
these people are not your true friends, BEWARE!
so what!? trying to show off that you're smarter than me?
fine, then go study NUS or NTU!!
how come you guys ended up in the same school as me?
it shows that your brain is EQUALLY THE SAME AS MINE!
understand!? HAHAHHAHAHH!

part of a reason why i dislikes comparing results,
it's due to that bitchy auntie of mine.
kays, i admit i dislike her very much to the extend!
yea, it's gonna be a long story if i continue...

side track a bit...
secondary school were FUN!
they were the best part of your memories,
so cherish em'
life couldn't have been better without them!
♥
-
then 3 years of poly life came.
it's becoming duller as the years go by.
though sometimes, it's exciting with classmates
with chalet and gatherings.
it perks up a lil only.
fakers still exist in our midst.
-
urhh, then came uni.
totally no life at all!
one week 9 hours of lesson time.
sit in the lecture for 3 hours a day,
then you say byebye to "friends"
c'mon lah! literally no life at all okays!
ahhh, then exams.
when "friends" don't come for lesson,
taking you as an advantage for exams tips.
WTF!?
then all their 狐狸尾巴 start to show out
learn to be selfish when you're in uni.
so that you can protect yourself :)
-

enough of side-tracking! :)
back to studying~
economics, GO MAN! haha

2009-09-11T01:46:00.004+08:00

~~fcuk~~ you!
i shall skipped details
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(conversation was longg-)

literally pissed me off
i've nothing to do with the both of you guys,
yet i was innocently drag into this picture!!
-
stop day-dreaming, luh!
i know what my heart need.
it's definitely not gonna be you.
i'm sorry but i did tried.
it's impossible, stop trying so hard.
it's so clearly stated to me but too bad i can't feel anymore.
& you clearly knew that i still couldn't get rid of the nightmares from the past.
what makes you think that i could give you my 100% trust?
c'mon lah! it's never gonna be you!
GET IT!? we're just plain friends!

she was absolutely right,
"if you love her, then make sure you don't hurt her the way he(____) hurt her previously"
sometimes i really don't know if you're(she) likable or stupid?
i know you still love him, but is he worthy for you?
i doubt so..
count the number of times he broke your heart?
did he ever disappoint you?
count the number of times of unrequited love?
did you ever feel that?
count the number of times 你付出的比他多?
can he be someone whom you can trust? BIG NO!
i'm absolutely sure about this.
idk if i'm correct for all of the above but somehow it did happen.
that's why everything ended.
sad to say, that in a relationship,
guys tend to be on the winning side more than girls

pushing everyone to the corners of the wall,
leaving no one to trust,
making me feel that i'm worthless and insignificant to everyone.
he, taught me all out.
and it's because of him,
maybe.. i will lose that someone forever or
maybe.. that right person won't get to appear in my life.

someone quoted:

"People talk bad about you because they have a bigger mouth than you, and a relatively small head."

DO YOU FEEL GUILTY OF THIS SHIT!?
DO SOME SELF-REFLECTIONS!
ass.

2009-09-09T23:27:00.002+08:00

09-09-09!
special day for me, huh?
having my first test in SIM.
i never expect to fail myself so badly.
shall skipped all those bad parts,
i nearly teared on the bus back
:'(
classmates to be so fake infront of you,
all this people were really jerks!
i shall let you know that i'm not that kind of person who can be easily taken advantage of.
WTF! JERKS!!
liars, hypocrities, AND PEOPLE LIKE YOU!
PLEASE, GO DO SOME SELF-REFLECTION!!
-
wondering....
i know, i know.
:(
judiong mama never even encourage me
:'(

went home,
then went over to queensway altering jeans.
SKIPPED-
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.
.
.
.
met khoon over @ town.
KFC-ed for dinner.
:) yes, it's sinful.
but still i ♥ it.
haha!
met a new friend again :D
3rd new friend of the week.
first were "sexy air stewardess" met @ army openhouse.
LOL!
make me laugh till i pengsan.

gotta start revising for the next paper again.
accounting is dead already, so
econs & marketing, please don't die on me.

tml marks her one year.
time seems so fast for us.
but wounds? do they really heal?
-
how much i struggle so hard in school,
partly it's because of you.
imy, grandma :(

2009-09-06T00:14:00.002+08:00

:) i worked 12 hours straight today!
i've never tried working that long before,
& i broke my record today.
wooweee~
& sad to say, i've got to stop working for 2 weeks
all thanks to rubbish tests.
okays, my leg ache like crazy.

AND reality hit real hard again,
with studying for tests this coming week
my marketing test have 8 topics? to MEMORISE BY HARD!
by next friday, oh thank you!
yea, so see how i study ah. lol.
burn everything and drink it. HAHAHA!

should i or should i not?
even though my mum willing to lent me $ for bangkok.
but expenses is a huge amt i needa fork out.
worrying for $ make me so stress.
plus, now i couldn't even find time out to work.
URGH!
"praying and trusting @ the same time,
he will provide."
okay, greats!

4 more days.
i miss you :)
how i wish you were here.

just trust and believe in yourself,
you can never ever trust someone words,
even though, they are your family or close friends
:)
i'll feel happier, if only there's me alone and not others.
you, make me look @ life differently.
hurt, took away my life away.
everything were lies.
so what is there left for me to trust?

2009-09-03T23:56:00.002+08:00

random:
i ♥ my ear studs!
blingsblings~ HAHA

i intend to get another pair of shoes,
cos' i've many pair of legs to walk with :)
"life is a journey, not a destination"

yea, and i went dating today.
got myself a pair of berms & belt.
but i was hardworking enough to
bring my own notes to revise on the journey.
ANDD! i even studied @ gloria jeans coffee house,
while waiting for my threesome.
for the first time, i'm so hardworking.
claps hand, please? :)

dinner-ed over @ fish&co.
aftermath, went ION to see shoes for judiong.
okays, shoes again.
"shoes make me happy, i'm superficial, whatever"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

i'm still dreaming~
why is it that you can feel pity for her,
but not for me?
the unfair part of me?

2009-09-03T00:26:00.003+08:00

SHOPPING with TROLLEY over @ giant.
two lil bags :)
as i said, temptations can't be resisted.
so we bought a levi's tee shirt for 10 bucks!
weeeee~ ♥
shitt, i'm like spamming my own blog with posts everywhere.
HAHAHAH!
okays, i'm making judiong jealous.
who asked her don't come with us? :)

_____________________________________________

:'(
opps, sorry to myself-
but this is how my heart feels

2009-09-02T19:16:00.002+08:00

while wating for wife to come over...
& then headed over to IMM, giant..

THIS IS SO BAD!
HAHA!
studied for only an hour plus,
then distractions came from tv and msn.
& i still wanted to go GIANT, like a auntie.
bad girl! LOL

temptations can't be resisted.
wife and i got a crocs shoes each online for only SGD 12.50
horrrrays~ we're damn cheapo.
thinking of my havaianas got me so angry!
errrkya!

OKAYS, FOCUS!
i have to come back later for revision!
i need to have a relaxed mind in order to fight this war.
LOLOL!

"grant me wisdom & strength,
i trust in you"
:)

2009-09-02T15:10:00.004+08:00

tests.tests.& still tests
lectures, lectures, revisions
projects, projects, projects
:(
super zzZzz, okays?
please continue to work double triple hard than others!
life's never easy but still-
i ♥ you, grace :)

weird.
not me but my dad.
okays, he drove me to and back from school every single day,
for consecutive 2 days. LOL!
i don't know why, but he just did that.
well, i can save on bus fare :)

off to intensive studying!
cos, tml i'm going for five-some dating
plus a bit lil of shopping :)
screams* HAHA!
just a lil reward for studying so hard
:x

random:
i ate a frozen nugget with cream.
lol

you, tend to take things for granted,
and-
you, only learn how to cherish things after you lost em'
i'm RIGHT!
YUCKS!

2009-08-31T02:27:00.003+08:00

SO NOW WHAT, HUH!
OMGGGGOODNESS!
!@#$%^&*()!@#^&%$#@&*()
I WAS LIKE FREAKING PISSED OFF WHEN I HEARD THE STORY HAPPENED LAST SUNDAY!
OKAYS! NOT PISSED OFF!
IS SUPER ANGRY WITH IT!
ONE PROBLEM AFTER ANOTHER!
it's like all linked together.
counted how many people dragged into it!!
maybe to you, i'm just making a big fuss out of it.
but i don't care about your feelings,
like how you did to others!
you think both of you are queen and king!
you have the right to hate people,
shoot people till death!
hurt people feelings!
yet only cared about your own feelings!
so, you think people won't get hurt by the words you talked,
the way you shoot her,
the problems you created out!
STOP ACTING HUMBLE!
stop saying that you all will rectify things,
make things better
which in fact, nothing was rectified AT ALL!
everything was still speechless between all of us.
don't ever say you will wait for me to give you a bloody answer!
you guys were the worst batch of people i've ever seen!
kiddos, huh!!?
you like to take things for granted, huh?
you'll sure to experience that too, soon!!
how i wished, i could drag your head infront of her,
and say "sorry"
YOU NEVER HOW MUCH I DETEST YOU!
SLOWLY, BIT BY BIT!
I REALISED, YOU WEREN'T LIKE THIS BEFORE,
AND I SAW EVERYTHING WEEK BY WEEK!
NOT EVEN I SAID THAT!
AND YES, YOU FINALLY SAW IT!
& THIS IS HOW MUCH I DETEST YOU!!

i'm definitely being blinded by love.
:(