i cried on the way home, just because of my first paper
OMG leh! :'( luckily nobody saw me, if not damn paiseh.
this phobia is like so bloody shit and scary
my soul feel like dying, literally.
i'm so so so so scared that i'll ****.
still, i choose to believe in myself.
but circumstances forced me to breakdown at times.
WHY!! i knew how to do it, but i gave up.
:'( urgh.
my one and only chance is gone.
you'll never know how i'm feeling right now.

2 more papers!
i'll still choose to work hard.
with double blessings, double strength, double wisdom that,
my Father provides.






GOD, i really wanna show your name to the people out there,
show your way
you can turn my situation around, possibly.
and this bible verse came right to me yest night.
-Philippians 4:13 and 4:6-7 :)
♥