Saturday, November 7, 2009 @ 12:29 AM
:D exams over! hurray!
econs, last paper done so so so badly :(
i just wish i could pass, that's all i hope.
after all that disappointment,
headed over to lavender, collect my passport, then
train-ed to meet UBF :)
initial plans-movied!
but don't know why ended up shopping.
LOL! had sushi for lunch/dinner.
his belated bdae' treat from me :)
went back our fav hunt again. haha.
headed home around 11 plus,
and the great thing is i left my passport in his bag.
like a dumb ass. lol
okays, i'm so gonna miss him ♥
he's going thailand from tml till the 11th.
bon voyage :D
next was spending my last 2 days working.
rly buried myself working.
:( and back to the sad topic,
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i really envy friends having good rls with their parents.
but why not me?
why can't they just understand me better?
why can't they just know what i really need the most?
not all those material stuffs they could ever give me,
not a cosy home cos' i dont think i'm living in a happy family.
not all their "love" towards me.
the truth is, i somehow start to detest this family.
i've a fcuked up brother, which is useless.
i'm sorry, i'm bad.
but there's no way i'm gonna shut my mouth forever.
you all make me feel like running away from home, so many times.
you always make me cry alone in the middle of the night.
some basic trust you can't even had for me,
so what's there left? to even talk about.
i know, there's no one to help me.
i'm fated to have this kind of parents for the rest of my fcuked up life.
the only thing i'm thankful is for my grandma.
don't ever say that we're a FAMILY, we should share problems tgt.
but the fact is that, so what if i tell you?
YOU JUST SIMPLY WONT UNDERSTAND!!!
cos we are just merely showing others what a family should be,
such a pity!
if i get to have kids in the future,
i will teach them the real meaning of what it means to be "FAMILY"
YA! i'm stupid like what they say, my brothers getting worst each day,
it's all because of their stupid way of raising up a child!! :'(
since they don't trust me.
so, whatthefcuk do i need to trust them!?
