Monday, July 20, 2009 @ 11:55 PM
:)
then i start to wonder,
am i the one at fault from the start?
am i making everyone suffering, including myself?
but-
i am not.
i'm just facing my own feelings,
is that even wrong of me to do this?
people said i'm too weak,
too weak that you should hate em' for ruining your life.
too weak, that i'm hurting myself the most.
i shouldn't hate, forgive..
i've done that,
but how come?
there's no way i could let off my feelings.
DAMN IT!!
好恨自己!!
why am i not growing to be stronger!!!
this is not e life i ever want to have!!!
it's changing, to be so scary.
this trap, i shouldnt have even stepped into it.
i shaked my head, slapped myself real hard,
laughed at myself!!
TAN CI HUI GRACE!
how could you ever be so, foolish?
don't you have brains!? why can't you think!?
are you really 12 or 21 years old?
those things i expect never turn out to be the way i wanted,
yet instead those things i didn't want kept coming along the way.
enough, i'm still not getting back on track.
so please, stop giving me 2 same problems at e same time.
:(
the 4 of you are driving me crazy,
with different problems.
wt*!
worst, nobody's helping me,
telling me what should i do :(
pathetic life that i'm leading, huh?
做好人，永远只会伤害到自己
i miss you, grandma :'(
