Friday, May 8, 2009 @ 10:38 PM
OMFREAKING G!
my internet connection gave up on my whole family.
plus my house phone.
felt like dying.
cmon!
but i survived 2 days without it.
congrats :)
i dreamt of grandma for the past 2 days.
:)
i saw her back on earth.
hmmm..
so i asked her why can she come back to earth?
and she answered, cos GOD allows her. LOL!
i always have this kind of weird weird dreams.
my aim:
watch finish my husband show.
chiong!!! :)
for the past few days,
went town-ed with wife,
NYDC! shiok :D
bought quite a few things,
its always like that.
when i go out, i will buy a lot.
if not i wont buy at all. LOL!
walked the whole of orchard rd.
up and down!
damn tiring.
more meet up, please.
with judi ong! :):):)
next meeting was with rose,
i misss her like hell.
its been months since i saw her.
went cck,
as usual luh, had pasta for dinner.
gossips~ complains, updates
we are pro at that. opppps :x
having our year one class bbq next sat.
well, hope it would be fun :)
NUH called earlier just now,
they asked me down for an interview on tuesday.
oh man!
i just hope to get recruited.
quit that blardy shokudo.
HAHAHAH!
cos' they got a new manager in.
lady somemore.
fly~ lol.
one small resturant, with 3 managers?
a bit crazy luh.
like that i also can be manager lor.
so easy. LOL!
okays, life is not always smooth.
there's laughter,
but always another side of me will show up.
after what i heard my mum told me,
and what you told me.
my heart just died,
i cant feel my heartbeat.
twice the impact, you know.
and i start to wonder,
am i doing the right thing?
eventually, will the 3 of us will get hurt?
the world is changing,
& so everyone is changing.
i dont understand her way of doing things.
well, i'm not actually affected by what my mum told me.
cos its the same thinking as mine.
TIME, is a very important factor.
urgh. i hate it!
i do whatever i can already,
i tried my best.
i _____, i've _____.
how long more do i have to do this!?
i'm not saying that i need someone immediately in my life.
cmon! im not that desperate.
frankly speaking, sometimes,
i dont have the patience to wait.
sorry GOD.
i feel so bad.
i made this decison all by myself, without waiting.
is it like repeating my mistakes 3 years ago?
mummy told me that most impt,
when you think back in the future,
don't ended up regretting your decision that you made today.
& i'm actually a lil affected by what you said.
i am thankful that you speak honestly with me.
cos, its takes a lot of courage to tell me.
i dont want to regret,
i dont want to feel the same thing happening again.
f***ing pain.
