Friday, February 27, 2009 @ 9:00 PM
i never felt like that ever before
& i swear, this is the first and its really very painful!
feelings very hard to control.
slightly a bit, i will feel very fusturated and irritated.
i dont want to lead this kind of life anymore.
errie, you have to worry what kind of troubles to face tomorrow
that pain in me,
nobody knows until you experience it yourself.
nobody can save me,
even if i scream out LOUD!
no one hears.
i can't even voice out,
neither can i tell anyone!
take a knife, STAB hard!
it really makes someone wanting to commit sucide!
let it end soon :(
"i need and i want to earn money"
this is what i told myself.
but now, even if i earn the whole world
i still cant do the things i like.
i can't even move my ass out of singapore.
but
i believe i deserved a good holiday for myself!
i really want to go to that place.
let everything come to an end soon!
this kind of complex world is enough
& its not within my ability to handle it
